"Hitchhiking through a world of gluttony"

I am 18, although I haven't felt that young for years. I love God and want to live my life for him. I make mistakes a lot and I know I'm not always living the way God intended. But I want to work at it everyday.
I am a Christian and I am also struggling with bulimia. My life is chaotic and lost, these are my thoughts......
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Hello Again….

It’s so easy to say “FUCK YOU” when he’s in the middle of his lets bash on the girlfriend rants, but then he’s gone………

And in comes that crippling fear of being alone…

Step One!

Cut all the buttons off his work shirts and pants….

Childish, yea very; however I think that I deserve to smile :)

Breath Me

After:
a month and half in residential treatment,
breaking out in the middle of the night,
spending almost a week in california with two of the most amazing girls ever,
planning a whole NEW me

I somehow ended up back in his bed…. How did i get here. I lost my best friend yet again over him and this time I KNOW she wont come back. I’ve been so stupid thinking he would ever change.